Answer this!

How can I make money fast without selling ass, stripping or selling drugs??? Why is this question so hard to answer?? I just wanna be successful damn. 


The Greed Bug

When your money hungry but don’t know where to get the money from has to be the most annoying thing ever. That is what I’m going through right now. I want the money and the riches. I’m willing to work hard for what I want and need but I just don’t know where to look. Guidance is what I need. I need to come across the right person who will give me the right opportunity and I swear I’m gone take off. My main focus right now is working and becoming a thousandair. Until that happens I don’t have time for anything else. That shit consumes my entire mind.  


I have the tendency to just fall in the background and not be heard. I’m a quiet person. But I would consider myself as an outgoing girl. Some way some how I need to be a little more assertive when it comes to me dealing with people in my everyday life. The thing is I’m quiet until someone FUCKS WITH ME, then I can be as loud as I wanna be. I need to learn how to be loud even when no one fucks with me. I can’t be walked over and I don’t want someone thinking that they can or can take advantage of me in anyway. 

Brand New

Waking up this morning I felt like a weight has been lifted up off of me. I’m not sure what it is. I did deactivate my Facebook last night so that could be it. Social media is the devil and I believe it can consume your mind if you let it. Now that I let that go, I am able to put my focus onto something else. I’m going to progress in my life. Speak things and they shall come into existence.  


As I laid there, he wrapped his muscle arm around my slim, thick body. And we slept. Slept til the crack of the morning. Something had slowly awaken us. For him it was morning wood and for me, I became restless because of his morning wood. I let him take me. I hadn’t planned on it going into that night. I was supposed to go home, but he wanted me to stay. I felt like he was feeling me so i did.  I’m trying to figure out where down the line did I turn on “I wanna fuck avenue”! I allowed him to consume me. So I can’t be mad. Hell im not mad. I just want to figure out why I did it?? For me or for him??

First comes guilt,then comes relief 

Have you ever done something that you knew was wrong but continued to do it anyway? Yeah? Me too. I’m sure we all have. But have you ever done something you knew was wrong but by fate that guilt is suddenly washed away? Well my situation this morning, booooooy let me tell you!! I am in a relationship that’s kinda complicated on my end (that’s another blog, for another day) and I tend to come across other people I have an attraction for.  The Head Man In Charge, it was my first time with a light skin before and it was actually fine. When finished I thought to myself…… How could I do that to him, yet again? But then the table turn. How would you feel seeing your dude ask for other girls naked pictures?? One would probably feel sad, mad, insecure, ecetera, ecetera. Oh but not me. I feel RELIEVED!!! Because the one who gets caught first…. Loses!